=) Juz as wat my laogong said.. We are getting married le..! And both of our parents know too~! And of cuz, juz like wat my laogong had said.. it will remain a mystery to all 1st.. ;-) It's ok to have disputes.. although both of us dun like it, but it's inevitable de. It's alright too! So we can understand each other more from different point of view.








Been quite some time since i last posted an entry.
Like laopo's previous post, everythings back to normal and even much better.
I'm glad that the tide is over.. I'm really happy =D
Anyway, this is the final phase.

My end of tour date has been logged in by Lakiun Camp, and is being confirmed
with HRSC. I'm coming back to Singapore for good on the 3rd of August 2009!
Counting down from now, it's just like 16 days?? However, this remaining days
in Brunei is not easy for me yet. Will be going through lots of paper clarifications,
as well as work loads as I'm preparing to hand over all my appointments here.

Will be working day and night, to ensure things are in good hand when I hand
over to MSG Ho. He's a really nice guy, and if not for his willingness to extend
his tour on my behalf, I wouldn't be able to end my tour as early. Really thanks
alot MSG Ho. Throughout my 1 and a half year career tour here, he's been
really taking good care of me. Often visit me to ensure that nothing goes wrong.
He taught me alot, shared alot of experiences with me. I really appreciate all
that he has done for me, contributed and sacrificed in order to give me his blessings.

I'll be having my 10 days disembarkation leave once i touch down in sg. 10 days..
not too long, not too short either. Will have lots to settle back in sg too. Will need
to go shop for our wedding bands, confirm and book reservation with our ROM
venue, get our own queen size bed and basic furnitures, as well as to get myself
a car. And then, we have our trip to Genting Highland from the 5th of August
till the 8th of August. Has already booked a Superior Deluxe Room with
First World Hotel. It was a great offer as the room is huge and well furnished,
but at a discounted price. Hope Laopo will enjoy this trip, and get away from her
busy schedules.

The BIG EVENT that we are both looking forward to will be our ROM solemnisation.
Venue will still remain a mystery to all of you people, until we decide to announce it.
Will also be going down to book an appointment with our wedding package provider
to try out on gowns, and suits as well as arrange to rom make up. I cant believe that
this is coming so soon.

Just hope that laopo wun take it to heart when we have some disputes and
disagreements during plannings and discussions. Afterall, it's inevictable to not have
any arguments through the planning phase. All we need is to understand each
others' point of view, opinion and share our thoughts. Nothing is impossible for
us. I strongly believe that our love will tide through all waves and tides, because
we are willing to compromise for each other, sacrifice for each other. All in all, it's
our LOVE for each other.

After our ROM, we will be starting to plan for our banquet. In fact, we've already
started out on sourcing for banquet quotations, venues and packages. Alot to
consider, and its gonna be tough. Need to come up with a budget, guest list, guest
seating plan, as well as many other hidden hinges. Jiayou~ this is our wedding!

This time round, I'll be really back in sg, and not flying off again. I know laopo's
happy that I've done so much, to prove my love for her. And she's so silly, keep
thanking me for putting her happiness on my top priority. Afterall, i am just doing
my part and duty as her hubby... I promised, i'll love her with all my heart, and
bring her happiness. I'm still firm at this, because my love for her has never faded.
NEVER!! =)

I'm rather stressed up at the moment with my final work load. This handing/taking
over phase is real tough. When i say real tough, you have got to believe me. ITS REAL
TOUGH!! But its the last final 16 days.. and i know i have to hang on, pull through,
before i can really have a piece of mind and enjoy my time back in sg. I hope laopo
will understand, and not feel neglected. I just wanna bring my career tour to a perfect
ending, and to clear my responsibility here, ensuring that things are in good shape
before i hand over to MSG Ho.

At the end of the day, I'm finally gonna reunite with all that i have lost since i was
posted over to Lakiun Camp. Going back to SG and be with laopo and my family is
the thing that I've always been looking forward to. This time round, not only am i
going back for good, but also to march th aisle with laopo, and say 'I do'.

I hope people out there, friends and relatives will give us your blessings. Thanks
everyone who's part of my life, as well as hers, thanks for being there with her
when i was not. Thanks for being able to care for her when i was not. Thanks!

Finally, to laopo... I love you, not because of your beauty. I love you not because of
your any physical criteria. I love you not because of any other reason, other then,

I LOVE YOU...

I misses u alot, and I assure you, you're not neglected. I reassure my love for you,
by ending this post with the simplest words of my thoughts...

Laopo, through all the times, my love for you has never changed. Should one day
a problem arises between us, fear not, for my heart will forever be with you. Till the
day I die, I give you my all, hoping that with the slightest reason, i'll be able to put
a smile on you. Laopo, I Love You~

永远爱你的老公。。。


So long... din update our blog. thanz laogong for updating too!

things had been settled. everything's back on track and even better! i have my laogong and my laogong have me! thanz so much laogong for holding mi on so so so tight! he loves mi alot, cares for mi alot, worried for mi alot, really alot..

Remembering the days we got tgt.. during our secondary days, we came to know each other in e same class. initially, of cuz we r not close. until ya, my eng, maths n science is sort of poor, teacher put him to sit tgt wif mi n sort of 'tuition' mi. hahaha.. tat was when we were sec 1.. we were close, n during 'reading period', he would sit beside mi, always slping. whenever teacher walked pass, im e one waking him up. days pass, i like him first de. hahaha. cuz he's so cute! i think tat time when he knew tat i like him, he tried to avoid mi. kinda sad.. lol.. then, during sec 2 one of e days, his sis called mi, asked mi whether i like juntai, im shock! n said yes~ she asked mi, whether can i be his gf? even shocked! n i said YES too! haha. we enjoyed the times we got tgt.. sending mi to sch, cyling, having gathering wif his band members, celebrate valentines wif ai and guorong. after a year plus, some1 took away my heart from him. we broke off.. from wat he said, we'll be frens. but he scolded mi, i cried, i hated him. 'i die die oso will never be tgt wif him agn!' hahaha.. after sometime during sec 4 n 5, we did talk like normal fren. he asked for a patch several times, but still a no no thing to mi.

we graduate. went our seperate ways. during my poly life as n when he still got call mi as my hp number din change at all. but everytime he called mi, his hp number is different de. once i saw him on the road riding with another girl. thought tat,' thats good, you've got a girlfren.' i was happy for him.. =) until the days before he went to brunei for his work, he smsed mi invited mi to his farewell bbq. i wanted to go. but i cant due to my shift work in kkh. so he specially met up with mi in 888, the place where is near both our house. in a way, quite funny, cuz after so long, we din met up n chat. still remembered i had a coconut onli and he ate wanton mee and his fav coke. during his trip in brunei, we sometimes did webcam when both of us are online.

he came back his home leave during june'08, we did met up too with our sec frens.. sometimes he ride mi to n fro from work. i acc him to shop around in sg. still rem we went to far east making e caps, e shopkeeper guy told him,'she haven get married ma, so you still have the chance.' hahaha.. and he'll always say,' no la, ppl is getting rom already.' when he wan to touch up his tattoo, i acc him too, for 4-5 hrs. i oso dunno why im willing to wait, hahaha.. mayb juz curious to see how a tattoo is to be done. days pass, and its time for him to get back to brunei. tat last nite we went to sing wif our sec frens. he ask mi to rub his ankle cuz pain. without sec thoughts, i juz rubbed for him. after ktv and chong pang for nasi lemak, we went back home on his bike. it was 4 plus am, damn cold. he held my hands, shocked~ i took away my hands when weng's car was beside us. i tried not to think so much~ guorong and i went to send him off that early morning. we had mac for breakfast in airport and he left.. in e bus on our way home wif gr, i was kinda sad.. i dunno why.. every bits and pieces of memories puzzled up together.. made mi think of juntai. i cried~ hahaha.. i keep telling myself, 'yes, it was his sending mi to n fro from work wif his bike tat i miss. i juz acc him to shop around as a friend. dun think so much...'

everything is somehow fated~ guorong came n chat wif mi...... and we get back tgt!! so after tat you all knew wat happen le.. ;) [please refer to the achives after sept'08.]

1 month back. we've overcome a big, huge, so high wall.. it is really a big test for the both of us.. things past and its over~ i've learnt my mistake. im sorry.. we are going to let it pass and move on! but still, hope time will heal everything. i still cry sometimes when i tot of wat i did.. im juz sorry...

Anyway! We are fine! so happy being together!! my laogong get along so well wif my family. his family n mine had met up together for dinner for quite a few times, which includes mi n him of cuz, his and my parents, my 2 sisters, his sister and bro-in-law and chanel (his niece). im really happy tat all of us get together so well~

Now juz waiting for laogong to come back for good from brunei! juz 32 days onli!! Jiayou Laogong!! I promise i'll never ever let you go. No empty promise. It's the last phase le. After that we'll be physically tgt agn and forever. And we'll start implementing on wat we should do le. Im really happy that we are back together... I Love You and I just Love you... Misses you so so so much... and that is why im writing this blog..

ps: 我爱你，老公!!





















The final stage, 60 DAYS~ YES!!!


Laogong loves Laopo.. u know, i know.. =D
miss you so...



SO IN LOVE WITH YOU (Original title: 世界为一的你 by 曹格)
Lyrics By: Laogong~

This is
Where our love story begins
Simple yet complicated yet moving
You are
The person who had changed my life
The future that lies ahead of us
Shining so bright
All the challenges that we had once gone through
All the downs all the blues
Miles apart but you’re standing so still
What would I do without you

I will always love you Baby
You’re my all my everything
I will give you my heart and soul
Till the end shall we hold on
I will always be there Baby
Be your all your everything
Hold me tight don’t ever let go
My heart is true
I’m so in love with you

Let us
Forget about those ugly pasts
Close your eyes and just reach out your hands
Then feel mine
Through love
We have leant to appreciate
It was not easy for us to
Be together
All the challenges that we had once gone through
All the downs all the blues
Miles apart but we’re standing so still
What would I do without you

I will climb the highest mountain
I will swim the deepest sea
I will give you my heart and soul
Till the end shall we hold on
I will always be there Baby
Be your all your everything
Hold me tight don’t ever let go
My heart is true
I’m so in love with you
Miles apart but you’re standing so still
What would I do without you
I will always love you Baby
You're my all my everything
I will give you my (Give you everything)
Now tell me you’ll never leave me
I will always love you Baby
Love your all your everything
Let us hold our hands together
We'll move forward
Towards our happiness

Hold me close don't ever let go
My heart is true
I’m so in love with
You

p.s: 我爱你，老婆！




Its now 1.02am, 17th May 2009.
I'm feeling excited. Cos in no more than 8 days, I'll be able to see laopo.
I have so much to tell her.. so much so much.. but i dun alwasy get the chance to
do so, because she's busy.. and i understand. I'm missing her alot nowadays..
there's nothing i can do to stop myself from it.. Laopo seldom smile to me anymore.
I love to see her smiling.. Only when i am back for good, then only will things be
better for us. I really need her... alot.. I wonder what would i be without her.

She's getting better le, but still coughing. I know she dun like drinking water,
but i still hope u'll drink more.. it will really ease the irritation. She has a new room
to herself now at home. No longer have to sleep in the study room anymore. And I'm
happy for her too.

Alot has changed, after since i came back to brunei in late Jan.. but one thing didnt,
thats my love for her.. it stand as still as an acient rock, acting as my life pillar to
move on each day. I'm looking forward to everything we planned. Picking me up
at the airport, sending her to work, fetching her from work, bangkok trip, clubbing
night.. i just wanna spend my every moment with her when i'm back. I just love her
too deeply. Its all in my heart... and its written on my face.

There's currently alot of things going on.. i dunno where to start picking up from.
All i could do is to look forward to my end of tour. I feel cold... being alone. I hate
this feeling of losing her someday. I fear losing her. I wanna prove to her that i will
move on and am able to take care of her, support her. I am not gonna be a loser!
I know just how well my personality is, and i wun allow that to happen.

Laopo, just bear with me, hang on tight with me.. wait for my return like how u
promised me. I need your encouragement... your support... I love you more than anything
in my life.. the best chapters were those with u.. and the worse, is the current, where
i get no warmth.. from no one.. I'm trying my very best, to give u my all. Trust me..
i will not let u down.. I know right now, all i can give u are words, and no action.
But i have no choice. U've gotta keep on loving me.. have faith in me, in us. Dun lose
hope, dun lose confidence. Dun forget about me, dun ignore me...

I love you... i really do...

i miss ur voice, ur smiles, ur hugs, ur kisses, ur smell, ur everything... i miss you!
You'll always be my Sweetest, Dearest, Cutest, Honey, 宝贝，Baby, Darling, Fiancee, Laopo!
And hope to always be your Sweetest, Dearest, Cutest, Honey, 宝贝, Baby. Darling,
Fiance, Laogong.... you're my precious... one and only love.. i love you forever..

countdown: 7 days, 8 hours, 15 minutes... Laopo... hopefully, u'll be counting down tgt with me..


Its been almost 4 months plus since I left my laopo, friends, and family..
Initially had no plans to return to Singapore.. However, I know that Laopo
needs me alot, especially when she's undergoing so much stress, struggling her
studies, work, and our relationship at the same time. Its been hard on her,
and I'm obliged to do something for her.

I love her alot, and she loves me too. Nothing would beat being able to hug her,
close to me and feeling each other's heart pounding as the clock ticks away..
This time round, for the first time, both of us knows clearly how hard it is to
maintain a long distance relationship, and how terrible it feels to not have
one another being physically around. I regret, for a mistake that I've made,
cost the both of us to suffer horribly. My decision to extend my tour was totally
wrong..

Not too late yet.. I've withdrawn my extension, the application has been approved
by my commander, direct superior, and supported by many of the warm stuffs
around in my camp. Thanks to all these people for encouraging me.. I'm giving up
on the amount of money that i could have earned, in exchane for our happiness..
I hope this time the choice I made is right... and would put an end to our sufferings.
Official email has been sent back to Singapore side, awaiting for their arrangement
and ro find a replacement. No results yet. However, My CO gauranteed me, that
something will be done, and he will push for my earliest possible opportunity to
end my tour.

Laopo's sick, I'm worried... running a mild fever at 37.3*C, sore throat, ear pain,
running nose. Yet still insist on working... after my tries to persuade her comes
to no avail, the only thing I could do was to tell her to Jiayou, and take care of
herself. I kinda feel that I'm useless, my Laopo's ill and there's nothing I'm
capable of to ease her pain. I cant even be there to hold her, keep her warm and
make her herbal tea. I cant even do a simple task, such as placing my hand on
her forehead to feel her body temperature. I'm a failure, for the first time in my
life, I feel so bad, so guilty..

It's 4.17am right now, date 14/05/2009. I'm still wide awake.. I just cant get to sleep.
The moment I close my eyes, laopo's image would appear crying, asking me to
hold her close... I cant bear to see that... I really cant..

Its about ten days from now before I touched down in Sg to spend quality time
with her.. as promised... I'm coming back to accompany laopo. Though number
of days that I'd be around with her is not long, I hope my effort doesnt goes
unnoticed... Wish that every moment spent with laopo, would be treasured and
appreciated... I've book air tix for us to fly over to Bangkok for a short vacation.
Hopefully, she'll be able to enjoy herself, and get away from her busy routine.

Laopo's been rather upset recently.. all because of a sinful me. I just cant seem to
understand her a lil more.. whats going on in me? Why just cant I spend a lil more
thought for her? Hmm... after days of self blaming and thinking, I'm finally able to
and WILL understand her current situation. Each day, I'll just sms her, reminding
her to take care of herself, take her meals and drink more water. Whether she reply
or not, doesn't matter much anymore. All i know is, she's able to read my sms, and
knows I'm somewhere caring bout her. I appreciate that even though she's tired,
she's spend sometime to msn with me, video cam, so that I'm able to see her. Even
if that's just a short few minutes, better then nothing... =)

I didn't dare call her when she's in the library, afraid of disturbing her studies...
I didn't dare call her when she's working, afraid that I'd get her into trouble...
I didn't really dare call her, afraid that she'll find me a nuisance if I call too much..

I promised her that whenever I'm around, I'll carry her handbag for her..
I promised her that I'll move on and not feel so moody...
I promised her that I'll kiss her even when we're just riding on the escalator..
I promised her that I'll hug her even when we're out in public..
I promised her that I'll not throw my temper at her ever again...
I promised her that I'll be back asap...
I promised her that I'll never do things that's gonna hurt myself again..

Promises.... are not meant to be broken... but to be kept...

I remember every single thing I've promised her before.. Because I love her so
much... that words can no longer describe. For laopo, I'm willing to do whatever it
takes, just to put a simple smile on her. I'm ready to sacrifice if I need to.. As long
as laopo's happy. I'm ready to take care of her for the rest of her life... until the day
she's gone, then am I allowed to die, because I wouldnt want her to be the one taking
care of me instead.

Ng Jun Tai... from today onwards, you'll have to prove that your love for Laopo is
real... Show her that you love her truthfully, faithfully, sincerely, wholeheartedly,
deeply, and its from the inside... Not just saying...

End of the day, who knows what will happen? It was all because of my one stupid,
damn wrong decision made, that has lead to laopo suffering without me around her.
I'm done with one word right now...



ps. I don't know when will u see this, but Laopo, you were right.. I wasn't
understanding enough.. I will from now on. All in all, we love one another, that's
why we're upset when we quarrelled. I'm sorry, for the tears I've made u cried..
will you forgive me, and await my return to reunite with u, probably for the rest
of our lives? Let us move on from where we are now and be find the happiness that
we once used to share.. I want you to know that, the only thing that I did right,





When You Say Nothing At All

it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying a word, you can light up the dark
try as I may, I could never explain
what I hear when you don't say a thing
the smile on your face, lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes, saying you'll never leave me
the touch of ur hand, says you'll catch me, whenever I fall
you say it best, when you say nothing at all

all day long, i can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near, you cna drown out the crowd
try as they may, they can never define
what's been said, between your heart and mine
the smile on your face, lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes, saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand, says you'll catch me, whenever i fall
you say it best, when you say nothing at all

this is my first post on this blog, our story....

dunno where to start, but recently really really misses everything
back home... my family, my friends, and most most importantly,
my laopo... totally low morale, totally moodless... only until ytd night,
when i saw laopo through webcam since 9 days ago, did smile break
from my face..
i know she's busy, with lots of assignment and her part time job also..
i know she cares and she love me as much as i do, but i just cant help
feeling down when i dun hear her voice, see her smile...
there's lots of regrets now... why did i agreed to extend my tour,
why did i choose to leave her behind... is money really everything?
i knew that certain things, cant be bought using money...
our relationship, our trust, our love, our care, our faith for one another
all are priceless.. so whats the point of me trying to earn more? its
just purely because, i wanted to have more money so that i could
provide her with a better, quality life.
i just hope that whenever i misses her, i'm able to see her...
its useless browsing just pictures, for when i look through them,
what goes in my mind are just the fond memories we shared...
it makes me feel far worse, the loneliless i never felt before..

right now, all i can ask for, is time to pass on faster,
so that at the earliest time possible, i can see her again,
feel her again.. hug her, kisses her, peck her on the forehead...
i really misses her... we've really gone through lots to end up
being together.. its just unexplainable... how valuable is she and
our relationship to me...

laopo, i really misses u alot alot...
really love you alot alot...
dun worry though, as promised..
i'll move on from where i fell
and look forward to seeing u again.
i'd be happy enough, even if its just 5 minutes..

i love u.... i know....


Guess whr am i now?? im now in SIM library~~ so sleepy~ having 6 hrs of break! 6 pm den start my class.. thought of staying in library do and find books/research for my assignment de, but im so so SO sleepy~ will be out in the library soon to find a Condusive place to rest~ hahaha...
Been busy nowadays, mostly with my studies, sometimes going out wif my friends and neglecting dear laogong too... Hope he will try to understand and dun emo... Argh... still got 4 more assignments and 2 more exams to go till i end my this semester!! Jia You Xie Xinyi!!
posting up my Bday post soon in FB~ or here if im free~ =)

*huggies* to Laogong~








Ytd Grace's temp spike up to 38.9 degree... In the afternoon after she woke up not feeling well le.. Tot went out walk walk would be more better... Who knows, more worse... Came back home, washed up, called laogong, took temp ---> 38.9 *faints*, msg you guys and laogong... Din took any medicine and slept... Woke up in the middle of the night 2am, hungry~~ Cuz i onli ate chee cheong fun, a barley kind of desert and a cup of tea the whole of ytd... Cook bee hoon soup.

After i ate that 3 hours, was a torture for me. Sometimes hot, then cold till shiver.. Hot again, sweating... Sleep supine on the bed, lateral or sitting upright... Headache, felt nauseating... Dehydrating... Imaginging who will bring mi to hospital... By taxi... Thinking that i went to TTSH to put on drip.. Will i be hospitalised? Will they hav enough hospital beds? If more worse, after CT brain or MRI found out something wrong with my brain.. Intubated.. Sleeping in Neuro ICU, taken care by SN David.. Deciding whether to go for op anot........... Till i saw my handphone the last time, it was 5 plus am... I went off to sleep...... ? Till just now 12 plus pm...

Woke up, saw laogong's msg... He's sick too, having fever 38.8 and sore throat... That's why he slept thruout ytd... Took my temp, 37.1... Going down!! Replied him to my current condition.. He called me, seen his MO le, took panadol and meds for sore throat, but not antibiotics... Replied to gx and weng's smses too... Im alright, thanz guys.... At that time was quite blur too... Went back to sleep agn... Woke up at 3 plus, msg laogong and told him to take his antibiotics if his fever not yet subside... and to contact mi after he woke up.... And my temp was 36.9!! ok~ Im alright....

Im worry bout Laogong le... Dunno how he is doing... He's still sleeping... Hope he'll be fine...

Loves From Grace~


Dear Friends, Cousins, Relatives or whoever who drop by and see my blog, as you know my blog url had change! (Ya, and i know you all see my blog wun tag one.. -_-") So just to combine our posts together~ We'll try our best to update something in ya~ Hugs!

-Greg and Grace-


Where I Went On Valentines Day..

To JB~

ScN Rocks!

Was at laogong's jie jie's hs from the late afternoon till 1am plus... Seen most of laogong's relatives... Intro me by his mum and dad to them... Some of them ask, "where is ah lu?" How I wish YOU was around with us~~ Sing at their's KTV room!! So nice~ no one fight mic with me!! Lol... His jie and jie fu sang so nice lo! Envious~ =) After chanel feeding time at 12 plus am den walk home, with laogong's mum and dad... So nice and sweet of them... Sent me till my blk's lift... Watching me enter the lift, going up then they left... Had really enjoyed my day... Getting to know his relatives [though abit mixed up with dunno who and who.. haha.. but still knew some of them~ =)] So miss you Laogong!! Loves~

Thanks Laopo for the G.U.E.S.S Watch...

Thanks Laopo for the D.I.Y Birthday Card...

Thanks Laopo for the Red Sotong...

Thanks Laopo for the Book of Memories...

Thanks Laopo for putting in so much effort...

Thanks Laopo for the sleepless nights she spent...

Thanks Laopo for the surprised she gave me...

Thanks Laopo for making me feel she was with me...

Thanks Laopo for loving me as much as I loved her...

Thanks Laopo for being understanding while I'm not around...

Thanks Laopo for not neglecting me...

Thanks Laopo for being morally supportive...

Thanks Laopo for waiting...

THANKS LAOPO!

~Jun Tai~

a "Guess" watch, red sotong and my Scrap book~~

~Jun Tai~

*uploading pics... pls wait...*


Laogong's 22nd Birthday Presents...

"Guess" watch and Red sotong

PS: Laogong... Surprised that you've got these first by ah tan other then your "not yet recieved" scrapbook?? haha... Hope you like it... I love you Laogong~ Misses you alot... Remember you are not alone... You've got me, your Laopo... Muack...